Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Haiku and Ramble.

Crushed
The flower
Still smells sweet

I was sitting at my desk, commiserating with myself about the infinitesimal hardships of my life, and saw a wilted flower. I had picked it earlier, admiring it's finespun beauty and honey scent, intending to draw it in my sketchbook. I had carried it in hand, juggling books, laptop case, coffee, and a sandwich to bring it back to studio. But by the time I arrived, clear, wet bruises already spotted the white film of the petals and I was late for my next class. I dropped it hurriedly on my desktop and ran. Four hours later, I sat down again to resume my studies, and could not. My chest ached under the weight of my thoughts, and my muse refused to budge. I stared gloomily at the hard light of my computer screen, browsing Deviantart enviously and chugging Diet Snapple. Then, I noticed the poor, forgotten flower limply clinging to the corner of the desktop. I picked it up sadly, and almost threw it toward the trashcan when the motion of my arm brought its still-fragrant petals under my nose, and I stopped. I caught the memory of sunshine and honey, and turned the flower over between my paint-stained fingers. I looked at it, and it looked at me. I replaced it on the desk, a little nearer than before, so as to have some company during the long hours ahead before I sleep. Every now and again, I lift the crumpled, browning petals to my face and inhale. It still smells sweet.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

World's End

All the world ends round the corner

Rushing people passing by

Pulled like leaves in running gutters

Spinning past me are no more

Like a ferris-wheel slow-turning

Whirling on in painted jewels

Masquerading phantoms riding

Wooden horses racing nowhere

Disappearing round the bend

I would bring them back tomorrow

Or the next day, if I can

Back from empty, void horizons

Dancing, dancing in my head

Just to see their souless faces

Coldly staring, passing by

Just so I won't be the only

Plastic face and hollow eyes

Hungry for a voice, and lonely

In the world I see before me

Ending just around the corner

Tiny White Anchors

So small, so heavy

Rooted down

Standing still

my heels grow weary -

gravity chains me to the ground

Cords keep me from falling

Endless, falling down

I watch them flying, longing

But there is no flying now

All my wings, all ancient dreams

My brittle bones, bereaved

Crawling keeps me safe

No crash

no blaze of frantic flame

No burn out as the embers die

And yet

No leaping over mountains

No fire in my eyes

I cannot lose myself in darkness

I cannot see the light

I cannot fall through nothingness

But neither can I

fly


All the Afternoons

With my last remaining years

I dig a pit of nothingness

in which to bury me

I rock

in my wicker cradle

all the afternoons

watching

the sun go down

and down again

I hear

my mother singing

but the voice

is of my wife

and also of my daughters

in the wind

a lonely harmony

carries dust

into my bones

I cry -- I cry in silence

and cannot remember

why

I miss the dawn